First off, I don’t know how this will go, but this post may be long.
Yesterday, I took a break. I took a half day from work. I spent the rest of the day with my family. We lost a family member last Saturday. We lost him to suicide. This has been incredibly hard and deeply saddening for my family, his loved ones, and his friends. I have been to too many family funerals, and I realize that it is a part of life, but man… I am heartbroken that it keeps happening to frequently and to the young. I swear, I have been there… not that deep, but I have been there, I know how it feels. I know how alone you can feel. I know. But I looked around the room yesterday, at all the sad sad people and it just hit me. Thank God he was loved, but it’s too bad he didn’t know how much. He left behind three children. Please remember, for you and your loved ones, if you need help, please reach out. In turn, I hope that my cousin has found peace and has also ran into our Grandma and Grandpa. He’s also got a few other family members to meet as well, aunts, uncles, other cousins, etc. Family… the one thing that can keep us all together. I hope you all hug and love your family tight, whether it’s SL or RL… they all have meaning.
I was very glad that my brother was able to come back for this too. He’s only two hours away, but it meant a lot to my family, myself, and especially mom. If you have it in your heart, please keep the family in your thoughts. This will be a rough upcoming holiday season, they need all the love and support they can get. At the end of the day, when my brother texted us that he had arrived back at home safely, he said, and I quote, “Everything recently has definitely made me appreciate more how luck and blessed we really are.” He is right. I, personally, have been through a lot this year… between the RL and the SL. The best thing that I have learned is that friends come and go, good friends become family… family is family. There is nothing more important than family. When family decides to walk away (and I’m not talking about the death above), there is nothing I can do about it. I’m not going to continue to put myself out there over and over again to get hurt. I can’t make you be in my life. I can’t make you like me. I can’t make you be around me. I can’t make you want me. The ones who want to be a part of your life will be there… and right now. I’m happy.
Here’s the deal. I’ve met a lot of people in the last year between RL and SL. I have met a lot of great people. I’ve learned that a lot of people are not. I think this post and this picture is fitting. The pose is entitled “Reach Out,” there will be a link below to my sisters store, she is amazing at making poses. This pose is perfect though. I have reached out and met so many incredible people through this experience into blogging. People who I would have never imagined meeting, ever. I have met some amazingly nice people on my way too. One of the nicest, and a big supporter is Adalynne. If you haven’t visited her blog, you are missing out. She has a heart of gold and I am honored that she would do this photo (and another one to come soon) with me. All the people I have met along the way, I’ve added a list of Blogs at the top of my page here. That will grow and grow. These are people who take the time out of their day to do some amazing work. If you aren’t following, you’re missing out. If you are following, please continue to show them support. We all need each other — in many different ways. Don’t ever be afraid to say what you need.. or approach someone when you are in need.
Lastly, thank you all who took time yesterday to leave me a kind note. I am continually amazed at the support that you all continue to give me and others. I am blessed beyond belief.
Pose: Something New – Reach Out
Song of the Day: Lean On Me – Bill Withers